Loving Someone So Much

While travelling back home with a friend from a party, he poured his heart out about his girlfriend. There was a point during the conversation that he mentioned he asked the girl is it so wrong to love you so much?

As for most of us women, of course yes. That can be an assurance of fidelity, I guess. And only fewer men nowadays can sincerely ask you that because that's how they are very sure of what they feel for you. Of course, we all know men to be polygamous.

But as for me, anything that is too much is bad as well as anything that is too less is not alright, too. I was so surprised to hear that but I was not surprised when the girl got a cold feet from the question and that is according to him. Loving someone so much can be a sign of obsession already. I like the idea of my man who has his heart only for me knowing that he loves me but my man telling me this, I might say slow down. Knowing you love me is too sweet already for me but don't overdo it.

I don't know as to how much is so much. Most girls do this but it is so unusual for a man. Loving someone so much is still pretty okay as long as you don't forget one very important thing and that is to love yourself.

Unbearable Nights

Some nights can be so unbearable. You want to cry but you cant. You asked yourself why cry when you can just laugh about it? I tried to laugh but the tears just flowing down your eyes, too. You tried wiping away all the tears but it just keeps on flowing until you swear to yourself and said cry and get it over with.

Cry for goodness sake! But every tear fell would not equal those years I had with you. It would just like every bit of emotions I would want to lose loving you but really cant. For how -- you have made me so become familiar with your presence, you have made me want to always be with you, you have made me think its us forever, you have made me believe in you despite of us being worlds apart and you have made me realize loving someone like you is worth all these pains i am feeling right now.

They dont know how it hurts inside. Losing someone you cherished the most to always hold...letting go of someone you always dreamed of being one with you one day...

Every corner of this room, every pages of our pictures together, every memories of your laughter stuck in my head, every loving words you told that stays into the deepest of my heart...

Just tell me the hell how can i let go, forget and leave all things behind us NOW?

The One For You

One day, I did not go to work because of my migraine. In the afternoon, I am already feeling okay so what I just did on the remaining hour of the day is to watch one of my favorite movies -- Sleepless in Seattle. It's caption is this:

"What if someone you never met

Someone you never saw

Is that someone only for you?"

Watching the movie, I still feel so in-love with many of the scenes. The caption just fits right to it. But nowadays, where is this possible? While watching, they are still using snail mail as a sign of communication from one state to another. Now, we already have emails, mobile phones and chat rooms. And the only thing that came to my mind is this: people who will fit this caption is the people you are chatting with.

In a radio station that I'm listening to one night, they stated that you might end up with someone you don't really like. Like a black men. And they laughed about it. Now, that's clearly very offensive. I believe whatever the color/race of a person, if you fell in love, this would be a nonsense of your usual "what-kind-of-person-i-like-to-end-up-with". Love can be given and shared with you by someone either she/he is black, brown or white.

Romeo decided to poison himself because the mail that Juliet sent to him was delayed. Lucky are we, I can say. Now, it'll just be a laughing stock to us. Our oldies ended up with their love ones through snail mail. Who knows, you might end up with your chat mate?

A Glimpse of the Future

"if I could see the future
I'd see if you and I were meant to be
but I don't know any magic
and tomorrow's just a dream
then something in this fantasy is real..."

It was a lazy afternoon and I was just listening to my collection of audio cd's. One of the songs that usually captures my heart is the song "If I Believe" by Patti Austin.

These line, even if we admit it or not, we have wished it one time in our life. I did. But not just once. Actually, a lot of times usually when you are watching Harry Potter. As for me, I wished that I had it during the time that me and my boyfriend are still together. It usually concerns us if we are going to end up with our current relationship one day.

I know basic palmistry reading. My officemates usually would irritate me to death, just kidding, to read their palms.Things like what is in store for them in the future or would they have a fruitful relationship. I really don't wanna be specific as to what I can see in their palms because I myself is avoiding to read what is in store for me.

Although, at times, I wish there are two lines who would join together [lol].

However, in the fantasy world, I really wanna see who am I going to end up with. Or will I ever end up with someone else? With someone else that I really love? With someone else that I really love and who loves me, too? With someone else that I really loves that loves me, too, and the one I can have kids with? A lot of things that I want to have a glimpse with. But as of the moment, what I want to do, is live every second of my life without worrying what is in store for me in the future. It will come.

Signs: Our Very Own Version of this Movie

While travelling to Sagada, I chanced upon this very cute place and the first thought in my mind is the Mel Gibson's movie "Signs".

Now, this is not something that the alien worked on. It is our fellow farmers who did it. Along the way to Sagada, you can find a lot of these!

A Time For Yourself

Traffic jams. Noises. Smokes. High-rise buildings. Loud crowd. Extravagant dresses. Fancy dine outs.

You are in the city -- no doubt.

I decided to put a stop on the traffic light. I chose to go somewhere where it is somewhere quiet. Where all you can see are clogs -- clouds and fogs. Where mountains are higher than houses and there are only but a few buildings. The dresses are just in tune with the weather of the place. And where there are no Mc Do's, Jollibee's, Chowking's or even fine dining resto's.

I made my goal by reaching Sagada. I have been planning to go here since the first half of this year but due to a tight workload and schedules that are not in tune with others, I have done it only this last week of November.

The adventures are mountain trekking and the cinematic views are not coming from any Hollywood movies but from the nature itself. I took the time out on viewing videos from YouTube and just recorded the Mother Nature on my digicam.

It is very refreshing. On top of all, I can say, what a break and what a wonderful experience apart from your usual everyday life.

I am In-Love With My Gadgets

When it comes to gadgets, I always consider one thing before buying it: comfort feeling towards it. I should have a personal attachment to it. I always tell myself this is the thing that I am going to hold always.

I don't go for branded gadgets. Even though I want this gadget but if this comfort feeling was not felt once I hold it and I don't like it instantly, I won't buy it. Seeing it in the catalog is different when seeing it in personal.

Recently, when I bought my mp3 player, I had the model A in my mind but when I saw it -- it's very different when I saw it and there's no connection the moment I hold it. You may think it's kinda strange it, huh. And so, I decided not to buy it. The model B was the other option and holy spaghetti!!! I love it right away! And when I asked for the specs, I became in-love with it more.

Another thing, I am not the best person that you can drag if you want to buy your gadget. My officemate dragged me one day to buy her chosen cellphone. I told her I might not the best companion in buying it but she insisted. By the time that I saw the product, I didn't feel that connection. My mind's made up. I don't like it. But for jeez sake, I am not the one who is going to buy it! Not just because I don't like it but because there's a lot of flaws in the warranty. I explained it to her and she understood and did not bu the product.

Instant connection, personal attachment, love at first sight but still knowing the qualities. Just like being in-love the usual way with someone. This is me when I am in-love with my gadgets and they will be my gadget for life.

Christmas Parties

December. It's the time of the parties. A lot of people makes a lot reasons to create an occasion to have a celebration. And during these times, people loves to go to parties as well. Just like me.

Recently, I have to decide whether I need to attend a party of our company or the party of an organization I belong to. I chose the latter. It's a very small crowd and there's also a lot of things to learn. We have a lot of speakers who will tackle about how to make money and how you can survive a money crisis. And there's also a part that some of the donations that was given by the sponsors will be given to a charity.


So, going to this party is really a better choice, I can say.

And the most beautiful part of it, is that, I get to win one of the most wonderful prize that night.

Timeless Piece

I keep all the emails that i like and has touched my heart a lot. One of them is this piece:

Are you a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or alifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will knowwhat to do for each person.

REASON:

When someone is in your life for a REASON. . .It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there forthe reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at aninconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bringthe relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desirefulfilled, their work is done.The prayer you sent up has been answered.And now it is time to move on.

SEASON:

When people come into your life for a SEASON it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you anexperience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach yousomething you have never done. They usually give you anunbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real!

But, only for a season.

LIFETIME:

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas ofyour life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

Stop here and just SMILE.

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
And dance like no one is watching.

~Author Unknown~"